I’ve Been Looking for You
Publication date: December 1st 2017
Genres: Contemporary, LGBTQ+, Young Adult
Max: The new girl, the sarcastic asshole, the one who avoids getting attached to anyone.
Emily: The golden girl, the rule-abiding rebel, the one who unknowingly craves something more.
When fate brings the two girls together, life seemed to fall into place. Until their future plans are shattered the moment someone leaves drugs inside Max’s school locker.
While Max inevitably loses hope of escaping her new grim reality, Emily struggles to move on without the one she loves most. Especially when she’s the only one determined to find answers. But the closer Emily gets to discovering the truth, the harder it will be to stop her pursuit, even when it leads to dangerous consequences.
Jennifer was studying History and English at the University of North Texas when she discovered a hidden passion for writing. She has since written two other Young Adult novels, Bound and Blinded. She lives in Seattle Washington.
FEBRUARY 7, 2015
“Where were you this afternoon?”
“I was hanging out with Max,” I said with a nonchalant shrug.
“Oh,” Jason said with an expected disappointment. Something that would have left me with more guilt if it hadn’t been followed by his next suggestive words. “I just thought we could have got some alone time with my parents out of the house.”
“We’re alone now.”
“Not exactly the alone time I had in mind.”
“Of course not,” I mumbled.
“What were you doing?”
“What,” I said distractedly
“What were you doing with her?”
I stopped drawing ketchup circles with one of my uneaten fries, looking up with annoyance.
“Why does it matter?”
“Just curious what was better than spending time with me.”
“Well, not that I need a reason, but she was helping me with my audition.”
“Audition for what?”
“College,” I said.
“Why would you need to audition?”
“Because I’m not just applying to get into NYU; I’m auditioning to get into the music program.”
“I didn’t know you wanted to go to New York, let alone study music there,” Jason said incredulously.
“You don’t know a lot of things about me, apparently,” I said.
“That’s because you spend all your time with your new best friend,” Jason said with a cold tone.
“Max has only been here for a month. You’ve had two years as my boyfriend and…”
I sighed, ready to drop the subject before I could even finish my sentence.
“Oh come on, Jason, you complain we never see each other, but in reality, you’re just complaining we aren’t having more sex. You could care less about my company anymore.”
“What do you call this date then,” Jason challenged.
“You mean the one I asked you to take me on?” I shook my head; regretting the fact that I hadn’t taken Max up on her offer to celebrate. “The same date that you have yet to stop talking about yourself so that you could ask me how my day was.”
“I asked where you were today, not five minutes ago.”
“No, you asked me why I wasn’t around to have sex with you in your empty house.”
“Jesus, you never used to be so pissy about our relationship before she came along.”
“I haven’t been happy for a long time, Jason.”
“Well, how convenient that you realize this once she arrived in town,” Jason said through clenched teeth.
“Get your head out of your ass.”
It seemed his lack of knowledge and my lack of disclosure spoke volumes of our true relationship. That, in the end, it always came down to how he didn’t care enough to ask and I didn’t trust him enough to let him in. But I felt ashamed that I had never seemed to notice the discontentment of our relationship until Max had shined a spotlight on it with her arrival.
“Look,” Jason said tapping my left bicep. “There’s your little lesbian bestie now.”
“Why do you have to be so offensive?” I said with a grimace before looking over toward the direction of his stare.
I smiled at Max’s proximity as I watched her walk confidently behind the hostess. I smirked at her outfit change, taking it in with far too much approval.